The pit of worthlessness is real. It’s a place of mental emotional and spiritual struggle for all of us. You have either been there before or you just came out of there even yet about to go there.
It’s the place you go to to make sense of everything that’s happening to you. Perhaps, you thought you were being the best version of yourself but everything seems pointless at the same time. You feel unwanted and everything people do or say makes that feeling real.
Sometimes it’s the bathroom, your bedroom, your bed and what’s really crazy about this pit, you are not there thinking of anything constructive to change about your situation, but instead, crying about that situation every single day, and simply feeling sorry and sad for yourself.
You may spend a whole night crying about what didn’t go well the previous day, crying about who said and who did what the previous day, meanwhile, everyone making you feel all these feelings in that moment are either having sex, watching movies or in a great slumber enjoying a very sweet dream. One thing my Sister Vivian told me was, “sit in that stinky pit until you can’t stand it no more and I promise you I was sick of that pit.
BE A LAMB
You have to understand that the love of God is free. There is nothing you can do in this life to earn the love of God. He sent his son to die for us and we did not deserve it but he did it and there is nothing you can do to earn that. Enjoy it like a free bill. God’s Grace and Mercy are abundant and free as well you can’t earn them. Unlike your boss, whose errands you have to run to earn their trust with God you don’t need to do any of that.
FORGIVE YOURSELF
For all the things that you have done wrong, and are afraid of taking accountability for you are just insisting on carrying a burden that has already been lifted. Forgiveness comes from God and his act on the cross was sufficient enough, there are no kind words or good behavior you can exhibit to earn that.
Therefore now, for there is no condemnation for those that are in Christ Jesus.
FORGIVE THOSE THAT HAVE HURT YOU
The hardest and painful forgiveness in this life is receiving forgiveness, you didn’t deserve or earn. forgive them because they can’t earn your forgiveness but because you are too priceless for an apology.
If your enemy is hungry, give him food to eat; if he is thirsty, give him water to drink. In doing this, you will heap burning coals on his head, and the LORD will reward you”.
Proverbs 25:21-22
AVOID THAT PIT
Last night I happened to wake up to take medicine and I sat in the sitting room while the rest of my family was sleeping. After taking the medicine, I sat in the sitting room for 5 minutes and thoughts were starting to flow insecurities, fears about my job, whether I still have one by the end of this year or not, whether I need to change my son’s school, why the job interviews are not coming through and what I should do, whether I should Pray or not and I heard the voice of God telling me, go to bed.
I said to God, don’t you want me to talk to you and God said that’s how you end up in the pit of worthlessness, start crying and worrying about things you shouldn’t even worry about. “Go to bed and sleep.”
I went to bed and even though I do not have answers to everything, to whether I will go back to work or whether I have another job, life is going on. I feel no pressure to compete for anything only Faith and Trust in God.
